I'm trying. I am trying to say 'yes' more and 'no' less. I am trying to see my kids as individuals and not as a host of little people who are more of a hinderance than a help.
I often complain to my husband that if it was only one child wanting to help, then I would do more. But
Rachel Jankovic, in
Loving the Little Years, dispels that notion by saying it's not their fault that there are so many of them. It's our job to adapt and not make it their problem. In Chapter 10, she says:
"I have to adapt. It is not their problem. Individually they are being precious and curious and excited. As their mother, I am responsible to see them individually, even when they are presenting themselves to me en masse."
This is common sense, and before I had 3, I would have thought, of course, it's a mom's job. But to read it now and realize that the past 4 years I have been in "survival mode" and that I need to snap out of that thinking, was a huge slap in the face. I had totally been letting the group overwhelm me instead of seeing them as individual little people. And I can't use that as an excuse anymore to not stop and feed their individual curiosity.

It's hard for me to say 'yes' to help in the kitchen, especially when I know I can do it in half the time and a quarter the mess. It's hard when I have a set amount of time during Reed's nap to get things done. So saying 'yes' to the girls isn't always that easy. But I have resolved to say 'yes' more than not.
And while I do allow them to help me in the kitchen, and we have done a lot of baking, I'm not going to lie and say it's always so much fun. Because that would be a total misrepresentation and I'm just trying to keep it real, y'all.
But I have been challenged at a deep level by this book once again. Man, had I known it would be so convicting, I would have never picked it up. I kid, I kid.
I have enjoyed the challenge. I want to be a better mom. I just didn't realize to what depths this books would speak to me. I didn't realize the author had been a fly on my wall and knew exactly the struggles I was facing.
So she threw down the gauntlet and I picked it up. I asked the girls to help me make valentines treats for their friends.
They quickly grabbed the chairs and manned their stations. They stood at the counter while I made the rice krispie treats over the stove. And they waited until they cooled and helped cut the shapes out and put the sticks in for lollipop krispie treats.
I'd like to say that it went smoothly, and that they waited patiently, but their attention spans are short and they got pretty restless. So when it came to doing the chocolate and the sprinkles, I opted to just do it myself. At that point I wasn't feeling up to listening to them bicker about whose turn it was. I was tired of remaining patient myself. I was tired of the mess and I wanted to just get it done.
But I am still glad I said yes. Because the more times I do, the more we'll all learn and the easier it will get. I know that the lessons they are learning - to help and to serve - are invaluable. And that makes saying "yes" easier. In fact, I said 'yes' the next morning when I made biscuits for breakfast. It was less painful and I even overheard Meadow tell her big sister, "This isn't a playground, Saige, this is the kitchen."
Well, I wonder where she heard that? :)
~cheryl~